Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Things that make me happy
....moving the couch 3 inches--OFF the heat register. :-/
....surprise jel clings on the bathroom mirror.
....shiny new pennies.
....finishing the penguin puzzle.
....surprise jel clings on the bathroom mirror.
....shiny new pennies.
....finishing the penguin puzzle.
....overpaid bills.
....fuzzy glubs.
....spray bottles with 'stream' settings. *snickering*
....fuzzy glubs.
....spray bottles with 'stream' settings. *snickering*
TFTD
The snow melts; the birds fly south; our hair grows a little every day. A best friend moves away. Perhaps a favorite grandparent dies. Some changes we wish hadn't happened, and we have to remember that change is as natural as breathing. We can't keep it from happening, but we can trust that change never means to harm us. It's a sign we're growing up.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Today's Thought
I know you're tired. I know you feel overwhelmed. You may feel as though this crisis, this problem, this hard time will last forever.
It won't. You are almost through.
You don't just think it has been hard; it has been hard. You have been tested, tried, and retested on what you have learned.
Your beliefs and your faith have been tried in fire. You have believed, then doubted, then worked at believing some more. You have had to have faith even when you could not see or imagine what you were asked to believe. Others around you may have tried to convince you not to believe in what you were hoping you could believe.
You have had opposition. You have not gotten to this place with total support and joy. You have had to work hard, in spite of what was happening around you. Sometimes, what motivated you was anger; sometimes fear.
Things went wrong - more problems occurred than you anticipated. There were obstacles, frustrations, and annoyances en route. You did not plan on this being the way it would evolve. Much of this has been a surprise; some of it has not been at all what you desired.
Yet, it has been good. Part of you, the deepest part that knows truth, has sensed this all along, even when your head told you that things were out of whack and crazy; that there was no plan or purpose, that God had forgotten you.
So much has happened, and each incident - the most painful, the most troubling, and the most surprising - has a connection. You are beginning to see and sense that.
You never dreamt things would happen this way, did you? But they did. Now you are learning the secret - they were meant to happen this way, and this way is good, better than what you expected.
You didn't believe it would take this long, either - did you? But it did. You have learned patience.
You never thought you could have it, but now you know you do.
You have been led. Many were the moments when you thought you were forgotten, when you were convinced you had been abandoned. Now you know you have been guided.
Now things are coming into place. You are almost at the end of this phase, this difficult portion of the journey. The lesson is almost complete. You know - the lesson you fought, resisted, and insisted you could not learn. Yes, that one. You have almost mastered it.
You have been changed from the inside out. You have been moved to a different level, a higher level, a better level.
You have been climbing a mountain. It has not been easy, but mountain climbing is never easy. Now, you are near the top. A moment longer, and the victory shall be yours.
Steady your shoulders. Breathe deeply. Move forward in confidence and peace. The time is coming to relish and enjoy all, which you have fought for. That time is drawing near, finally.
I know you have thought before that the time was drawing near, only to learn that it wasn't. But now, the reward is coming. You know that too. You can feel it.
Your struggle has not been in vain. For every struggle on this journey, there is a climax, a resolution.
Peace, joy, abundant blessings, and reward are yours here on earth. Enjoy.
There will be more mountains, but now you know how to climb them. And you have learned the secret of what is at the top.
Today, I will accept where I am and continue pushing forward. If I am in the midst of a learning experience, I will allow myself to continue on with the faith that the day of mastery and reward will come. Help me, God; understand that despite my best efforts to live in peaceful serenity, there are times of mountain climbing. Help me stop creating chaos and crisis, and help me meet the challenges that will move me upward and forward.
It won't. You are almost through.
You don't just think it has been hard; it has been hard. You have been tested, tried, and retested on what you have learned.
Your beliefs and your faith have been tried in fire. You have believed, then doubted, then worked at believing some more. You have had to have faith even when you could not see or imagine what you were asked to believe. Others around you may have tried to convince you not to believe in what you were hoping you could believe.
You have had opposition. You have not gotten to this place with total support and joy. You have had to work hard, in spite of what was happening around you. Sometimes, what motivated you was anger; sometimes fear.
Things went wrong - more problems occurred than you anticipated. There were obstacles, frustrations, and annoyances en route. You did not plan on this being the way it would evolve. Much of this has been a surprise; some of it has not been at all what you desired.
Yet, it has been good. Part of you, the deepest part that knows truth, has sensed this all along, even when your head told you that things were out of whack and crazy; that there was no plan or purpose, that God had forgotten you.
So much has happened, and each incident - the most painful, the most troubling, and the most surprising - has a connection. You are beginning to see and sense that.
You never dreamt things would happen this way, did you? But they did. Now you are learning the secret - they were meant to happen this way, and this way is good, better than what you expected.
You didn't believe it would take this long, either - did you? But it did. You have learned patience.
You never thought you could have it, but now you know you do.
You have been led. Many were the moments when you thought you were forgotten, when you were convinced you had been abandoned. Now you know you have been guided.
Now things are coming into place. You are almost at the end of this phase, this difficult portion of the journey. The lesson is almost complete. You know - the lesson you fought, resisted, and insisted you could not learn. Yes, that one. You have almost mastered it.
You have been changed from the inside out. You have been moved to a different level, a higher level, a better level.
You have been climbing a mountain. It has not been easy, but mountain climbing is never easy. Now, you are near the top. A moment longer, and the victory shall be yours.
Steady your shoulders. Breathe deeply. Move forward in confidence and peace. The time is coming to relish and enjoy all, which you have fought for. That time is drawing near, finally.
I know you have thought before that the time was drawing near, only to learn that it wasn't. But now, the reward is coming. You know that too. You can feel it.
Your struggle has not been in vain. For every struggle on this journey, there is a climax, a resolution.
Peace, joy, abundant blessings, and reward are yours here on earth. Enjoy.
There will be more mountains, but now you know how to climb them. And you have learned the secret of what is at the top.
Today, I will accept where I am and continue pushing forward. If I am in the midst of a learning experience, I will allow myself to continue on with the faith that the day of mastery and reward will come. Help me, God; understand that despite my best efforts to live in peaceful serenity, there are times of mountain climbing. Help me stop creating chaos and crisis, and help me meet the challenges that will move me upward and forward.
Sunday, January 09, 2011
Lunch with 'MelMo' and the bug
Uh huh......he had soup. And he did the Hokey Pokey with the bug--or vice versa..... Oh--and Nana had french fries....and pizza.
Pizza from the oven and french fries from the......coffee pot.
(doesn't everyone cook 'em in the coffee pot?!.....yeah well, hers were scrumptious, ty!)
We had a lovely play. And it was too short, dangit....
HOME Nana. UP!!!!!! Up. Up up UP!!!!!! Naaaaanaaaaaa!!!!!!
*sigh*
She was still crying when I left.
Ohhhhhhhhhh.....
You put your left foot in, you take your left foot out
You put your left foot in and you shake it all about....lalalalala
*fingers to keyboard with the fairy*
I guess that means "I'll figure it out" is disallowed for today.
Thank you, reading fairies. *scowling*
Perhaps I'm not giving people enough credit.
I've been known to do that.
I don't look at that 'martyr' deal as being a piece of it. Maybe it is and I just don't know it.
I figure it'll create more problem than serve to the good if I plonk it all on the table and say "There....here's the stressful crap".
It's not that anyone can change it.
And WPIML knows the ins and outs of all of the 'stuff'.
But you're here to tell me there's a point in plonking it on the table and puking out what's what in my head?
Nope.
Not seeing it, given the audiences I'm playin' to.
Some of them are horribly neurotic and given to drama...and paralysis happens when something rocks their world. So far the experience with a few of those other people hasn't been a positive one. It's created more harm than it's created good.
I say it.
I catch the reactions.
I carefully respond with an "I'll figure it out".
Maybe it's about WHO I'm handing the 'stuff' over to as opposed to a blanket statement about giving it.
Okay. I'm liking that answer.
*laughing*
Oh look....I figured it out. :-D
And I'm liking that the coffee pot was cleaned yesterday and the coffee was actually done, lickedy split!
Life is good! :-)
Thank you, reading fairies. *scowling*
Perhaps I'm not giving people enough credit.
I've been known to do that.
I don't look at that 'martyr' deal as being a piece of it. Maybe it is and I just don't know it.
I figure it'll create more problem than serve to the good if I plonk it all on the table and say "There....here's the stressful crap".
It's not that anyone can change it.
And WPIML knows the ins and outs of all of the 'stuff'.
But you're here to tell me there's a point in plonking it on the table and puking out what's what in my head?
Nope.
Not seeing it, given the audiences I'm playin' to.
Some of them are horribly neurotic and given to drama...and paralysis happens when something rocks their world. So far the experience with a few of those other people hasn't been a positive one. It's created more harm than it's created good.
I say it.
I catch the reactions.
I carefully respond with an "I'll figure it out".
Maybe it's about WHO I'm handing the 'stuff' over to as opposed to a blanket statement about giving it.
Okay. I'm liking that answer.
*laughing*
Oh look....I figured it out. :-D
And I'm liking that the coffee pot was cleaned yesterday and the coffee was actually done, lickedy split!
Life is good! :-)
Fairy Reading for the Day
We don't have to struggle through feelings and problems alone. We can ask for help and for support and encouragement from our friends.
Whether what we need is information, encouragement, a hand, a word, a hug, someone who will listen, or a ride, we can ask. We can ask people for what we need from them.
It is self-defeating to not ask for the help we need. It keeps us stuck. If we ask long and hard enough, if we direct our request to the right source, we'll get the help we need.
There is a difference between asking someone to rescue us and asking someone in a direct manner for the help we need from him or her. We can be straightforward and let others choose whether to help us or not. If the answer is no, we can deal with that.
It is self-defeating to hint, whine, manipulate, or coerce help out of people. It is annoying to go to people as a victim and expect them to rescue us. It is healthy to ask for help when help is what we need.
We who are eager to help others can learn to allow ourselves to receive help. We can learn to make clean contracts about asking for and receiving the help we want and need.
Today, I will ask for help if I need it. I will not be a victim, helplessly waiting to be rescued. I will make my request for help specific, to the point, and I will leave room for the person to choose whether or not to help me. I will not be a martyr any longer by refusing to get the help I deserve in life - the help that makes life simpler. I will let go of my need to do everything alone and use the vast Universe of resources available to me.
Whether what we need is information, encouragement, a hand, a word, a hug, someone who will listen, or a ride, we can ask. We can ask people for what we need from them.
It is self-defeating to not ask for the help we need. It keeps us stuck. If we ask long and hard enough, if we direct our request to the right source, we'll get the help we need.
There is a difference between asking someone to rescue us and asking someone in a direct manner for the help we need from him or her. We can be straightforward and let others choose whether to help us or not. If the answer is no, we can deal with that.
It is self-defeating to hint, whine, manipulate, or coerce help out of people. It is annoying to go to people as a victim and expect them to rescue us. It is healthy to ask for help when help is what we need.
We who are eager to help others can learn to allow ourselves to receive help. We can learn to make clean contracts about asking for and receiving the help we want and need.
Today, I will ask for help if I need it. I will not be a victim, helplessly waiting to be rescued. I will make my request for help specific, to the point, and I will leave room for the person to choose whether or not to help me. I will not be a martyr any longer by refusing to get the help I deserve in life - the help that makes life simpler. I will let go of my need to do everything alone and use the vast Universe of resources available to me.
Saturday, January 08, 2011
Fairy Reminder
Today, we can, each of us, look back on our lives and get a glimmering of why something happened and how it fit into the larger mosaic of our lives. And this will continue to be true for us. We have stumbled. We will stumble. And we learn about ourselves, about what makes us stumble and about the methods of picking ourselves up.
Life is a process, a learning process that needs those stumbles to increase our awareness of the steps we need to take to find our dream at the top. None of us could realize the part our stumbling played in the past. But now we see. When we fall, we need to trust that, as before, our falls are "up," not down.
I will see the whole view in time. I see part of it daily. My mosaic is right and good and needs my stumbles.
Life is a process, a learning process that needs those stumbles to increase our awareness of the steps we need to take to find our dream at the top. None of us could realize the part our stumbling played in the past. But now we see. When we fall, we need to trust that, as before, our falls are "up," not down.
I will see the whole view in time. I see part of it daily. My mosaic is right and good and needs my stumbles.
Friday, January 07, 2011
I took a detour
I didn't mean to. I had to.
It was an hour drive to the meeting--a walk around, deciding some of the physical plant details, pouring over floor plans.... I was ready to be done an hour before it was ended. So I turned on to a county road off of the highway, thinking I'd return home faster.
That's what I get for thinking. I was making great time until I hit that detour sign.
Ah, but it was a pretty drive. And I got to see eagles.
I discovered a bitty cemetary -- one of those 'oh go look....it's so cute' moments. In the middle of nowhere, really. Silent, quilted by the snow. I didn't bring myself to the point of wandering through--I couldn't justify disturbing the perfect quilted peace.
And then I opted to take the windy curvy gravel road and quickly discovered that it was taking me in the wrong direction.
I decided I didn't mind. I mean what the heck--the agenda to find a quicker route home was changed with the detour....so why not?
So I got lost for a while--
And it was a good lost.
Things just kinda went *poof* and I got to see all sorts of wonderful things. And it was an awesome sunset!!!! OHmygosh....
So--
The good news is I had the camera and my brain really did need the clearing out.
The other good news is I learned a lesson about always carrying spare batteries. *laughing*
I say that with the bestest of intentions to actually STICK new batteries in the camera and spares in the case.
However--
Just like the intent to get home in a faster manner led to a 2 hour adventure off the beaten path, so could the walk to the kitchen to get the batteries!
It was an hour drive to the meeting--a walk around, deciding some of the physical plant details, pouring over floor plans.... I was ready to be done an hour before it was ended. So I turned on to a county road off of the highway, thinking I'd return home faster.
That's what I get for thinking. I was making great time until I hit that detour sign.
Ah, but it was a pretty drive. And I got to see eagles.
I discovered a bitty cemetary -- one of those 'oh go look....it's so cute' moments. In the middle of nowhere, really. Silent, quilted by the snow. I didn't bring myself to the point of wandering through--I couldn't justify disturbing the perfect quilted peace.
And then I opted to take the windy curvy gravel road and quickly discovered that it was taking me in the wrong direction.
I decided I didn't mind. I mean what the heck--the agenda to find a quicker route home was changed with the detour....so why not?
So I got lost for a while--
And it was a good lost.
Things just kinda went *poof* and I got to see all sorts of wonderful things. And it was an awesome sunset!!!! OHmygosh....
So--
The good news is I had the camera and my brain really did need the clearing out.
The other good news is I learned a lesson about always carrying spare batteries. *laughing*
I say that with the bestest of intentions to actually STICK new batteries in the camera and spares in the case.
However--
Just like the intent to get home in a faster manner led to a 2 hour adventure off the beaten path, so could the walk to the kitchen to get the batteries!
Today's Reading
Our lives can be like a battle between darkness and light.
The darkness might be in our moods when we wake in the morning with feelings of despair and we are tempted to take that out on the people around us. The darkness is there when we are tempted to take advantage of a clerk who gives us too much change. The darkness is there when we are tempted to excuse away or displace responsibility because we don't want to be corrected by our employer.
Then the light comes as we remember that we practice rigorous honesty, and each choice for honesty promotes our personal growth.
Today, I can take a leap of faith by choosing an action and accepting that one small choice for the light makes a difference - even in all the darkness.
The darkness might be in our moods when we wake in the morning with feelings of despair and we are tempted to take that out on the people around us. The darkness is there when we are tempted to take advantage of a clerk who gives us too much change. The darkness is there when we are tempted to excuse away or displace responsibility because we don't want to be corrected by our employer.
Then the light comes as we remember that we practice rigorous honesty, and each choice for honesty promotes our personal growth.
Today, I can take a leap of faith by choosing an action and accepting that one small choice for the light makes a difference - even in all the darkness.
Thursday, January 06, 2011
Fairy Wisdom
Do not worry about how the good that has been planned for you will come.
It will come.
Do not worry, obsess, and think you have to control it, go out hunting for it, or tangle your mind trying to figure out how and when it will find you.
It will find you.
Surrender. Trust. Then, stay peaceful. Trust and listen to yourself. That is how the good you want will come to you.
Your healing. Your joy. Your relationships. Your solutions. That job. That desired change. That opportunity. It will come to you - naturally, with ease, and in a host of ways.
That answer will come. The direction will come. The money. The idea. The energy. The creativity. The path will open itself to you. Trust that, for it has already been planned.
It is futile, a waste and drain of energy, to worry about how it will come. It is already there. You have it already. It is in place. You just cannot see it!
You will be brought to it, or it will be brought to you.
Today, I will relax and trust that the good I need, will find me. Either through my leadings, or the leadings of others, all I want and need will come to me when the time is right.
It will come.
Do not worry, obsess, and think you have to control it, go out hunting for it, or tangle your mind trying to figure out how and when it will find you.
It will find you.
Surrender. Trust. Then, stay peaceful. Trust and listen to yourself. That is how the good you want will come to you.
Your healing. Your joy. Your relationships. Your solutions. That job. That desired change. That opportunity. It will come to you - naturally, with ease, and in a host of ways.
That answer will come. The direction will come. The money. The idea. The energy. The creativity. The path will open itself to you. Trust that, for it has already been planned.
It is futile, a waste and drain of energy, to worry about how it will come. It is already there. You have it already. It is in place. You just cannot see it!
You will be brought to it, or it will be brought to you.
Today, I will relax and trust that the good I need, will find me. Either through my leadings, or the leadings of others, all I want and need will come to me when the time is right.
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
I'm just not sure......
Go figure when you wrap your head around something happening--it gets changed.
Not that the whole ball of wax is changed, just the time frames for the change.
I have some thinking around that.
I'm not sure it's all very pure and loving at this moment. But I get to embrace the things I cannot change as opportunities while still chasing what I believe is 'right'.
I am not going to be popular.
This on the heels of being asked to be active in a process that's important to the whole of the company I work for.
Cuz I'm good at writing.
Cuz I pay attention to the details.....
"Cuz I'm obsessive and anal?"
Yup--that's what he said....cuz I pay attention to the details.
Nice reframe. *laughing*
I'm still going to chase what I believe is right. And that'll undoubtedly ruffle feathers and make me unpopular with some folks.
But yes thank you, I think I'd like to take my anal self to more meetings and help write some rather hefty stuff.
I wonder if I can use this as an excuse to purchase some really nifty-keeno pens and pencils?!
Or.....a cool computery thingy! Whoa....how cool would that be?!
k....I'll stick with the pens and pencils. :-/
Not that the whole ball of wax is changed, just the time frames for the change.
I have some thinking around that.
I'm not sure it's all very pure and loving at this moment. But I get to embrace the things I cannot change as opportunities while still chasing what I believe is 'right'.
I am not going to be popular.
This on the heels of being asked to be active in a process that's important to the whole of the company I work for.
Cuz I'm good at writing.
Cuz I pay attention to the details.....
"Cuz I'm obsessive and anal?"
Yup--that's what he said....cuz I pay attention to the details.
Nice reframe. *laughing*
I'm still going to chase what I believe is right. And that'll undoubtedly ruffle feathers and make me unpopular with some folks.
But yes thank you, I think I'd like to take my anal self to more meetings and help write some rather hefty stuff.
I wonder if I can use this as an excuse to purchase some really nifty-keeno pens and pencils?!
Or.....a cool computery thingy! Whoa....how cool would that be?!
k....I'll stick with the pens and pencils. :-/
Today's Fairy Reading
Every problem can be resolved. And no answer is ever withheld for long. We need to be open to it, though. We need to step away from our ego, outside of the problem and then listen fully to the words of friends, to the words that rise from our own hearts. Too much thinking, incessant analyzing, will keep any problem a problem.
I will rest from my thoughts. I will give my attention wholly to the present. Therein will come the solution, and when least expected.
I will rest from my thoughts. I will give my attention wholly to the present. Therein will come the solution, and when least expected.
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
QOTW
What's for dinner?
Himself declined my help--I offered. "No thank you. I can cockup this by myself...."
We're having chicken risotto--with mushrooms and celery and onions.....
Whether it's cockedup or not--that's what we're having.
Yum!
(yathink he might be hangin' on to that Christmas turkey ordeal just a TAD?....sheeeeesh...)
Himself declined my help--I offered. "No thank you. I can cockup this by myself...."
We're having chicken risotto--with mushrooms and celery and onions.....
Whether it's cockedup or not--that's what we're having.
Yum!
(yathink he might be hangin' on to that Christmas turkey ordeal just a TAD?....sheeeeesh...)
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