Another cup of cofffee.......

Yup.....I'm alone. And I do too much thinking when I'm alone.

WPIML didn't need to remind me of that--apparently he felt it was necessary to call that fact to my attention.

Yup. I'm alone.
And Yup......I do too much thinking.

I'm not sad.
k....I am sad about the circumstances for The Brit's mum. And I've no doubt it's a difficult thing for him to get to contend with--and he's contending with it alone. He's an 'only child'. I'm sure it feels particularly lonely, getting to do what he's getting to do.
I'm not an 'only child'--attending to stuff with an ailing step-parent was a lonely affair when it was time for me to do it.
It didn't matter how many people were attempting to stick their hand in that till--it was a lonely, sad and sometimes scary affair.

It just gets to be how it is today.

WPIML didn't wanna talk about The Brit and the mum and the circumstances that drove the decision to send himself solo. Go figure he wanted to talk about me.

MEMEME.......*sigh*

I don't particularly wanna talk about MEMEME, tyvm.
I'm good with simply doing what's in front of me.....

Wanna talk the inside workings......nope, pass.
Geeze....everybody knows that Mel having too much time with Mel is a baddddddd plan.
Including Mel.

Which is why shampooing the carpets happened straight out of the gate.
And why closets have been reorganized.
And why crafty stuff has been sorted through and straightened.
And why all those silly floppy thingies got put onto a memory stick....
*sigh*

But I'm running outta things around this joint that I wanna do.
Note that I said 'wanna do'.
And I'm getting myself into that place of 'danger danger Will Robinson!!!'.
I know it.
WPIML knows it.....

He suggested maybe doing an extra meeting or two......I just don't have the desire. And I'm not bothering to find the energy at this point.
Going to see the bug is an option that I've executed more than once. The girl knows me and my crazy thinking--she's kept an 'open door' policy going....Nana gives her a break and the bug makes me happy.....it's that darn simple.

But alone happens.
And yup......WPIML has just cause for concern.
I don't have to pick up a drink to get that whacked out thinking.......heck, I've not picked up a drink for some time now....
Doesn't mean the whacked out thinking is gone.
I'm clear it's not.

So......keep busy.
Find another cupboard to clean, another area to straighten.....another person to ring.....another work-related thing to toss myself into.....
Cuz I'm thinkin' too much.
And I'm ruminating over stuff I don't get to control or change today.
And some of the circumstances--are just hard.
Thinkin' about 'em makes me scared.......

And I do not do fear well.