TFTD

You can train your mind to respond to

'incoming data' without fear.

All you have to do is remember who you are, and that

there is never a moment when you do not

have God on your side.

So step into tomorrow without apprehension, and do

not waste your time with worry. Rather, fill your time

with creative thinking about how to move forward,

no matter what happens.

Yes vacancy

Today's Fairy Reminder

The purpose of having boundaries is to protect and take care of ourselves. We need to be able to tell other people when they are acting in ways that are not acceptable to us. 

A first step is starting to know that we have a right to protect and defend ourselves. We have not only the right but the duty to take responsibility for how we allow others to treat us.

Waking up Mr. River

Things that make me happy....

....watching the boss laugh when I asked if he thought I was sitting home on the couch eating bon bons the past two months.

....the surprise of a leafless lawn when a loving someone mulched the whole yard while we were out and about.

....the 'forgot to put it with the rest of the decorations' wee witch that's sitting on a shelf...and is going to stay there.

....the sister getting a dental fitting--almost 2 years after the surgery.  She'll feel sooo much better.

....walking the mile yesterday--with one crutch and no brace....AFTER it snowed.

....surviving a weeks worth of full time work!

....hearing 'we missed you' and knowing it's true.

....having the Physical Therapist's validation that the 'clunk' was a joint freed up from scar tissue and the 'atta girl' that came when I told him I gave myself a stern talking to and got on with the plan.  LOL

Fairy Reminder

Happiness and joy comes to you when it moves

through you. There is no other pathway--and that's

the miracle.

You will have a number of opportunities in the days

just ahead to be a vehicle of happiness and joy for

another. Step right into that. Be the source of that.

As you bring others to a smile, so, too, will you

bring yourself. The method is foolproof.

A touch of morning

....the mile

I walked a mile yesterday--not all in one go, but I did make the mile!  On one crutch, even.
Good enough for me!  At least for now.

That's where I landed.  After the stern talking to, I decided to forge ahead and stop reacting to every little ache, pain and 'clunk' that shows up.  I told the physical therapist that 'fear' would be my biggest barrier right now.  I mean, who wants to continue doing this broken-ness.  I want the healing to happen so I can get about the business of reclaiming some of my life back.  I know I'm going to have some different limitations, but.......

I've also decided that my body is going to have some strange 'going ons' happening.  Muscles and nervers are a tad confused.  Joints are revolting.  It's been 11 months (to the day, no less) since I've been able to use this leg to full capacity.  (Happy broken leg anniversary to me.  LOL)  11 months is a long time for muscles/bones and joints to be so limited.  And I'm still dealing with damage from the surgery. I'm pretty sure my bone wasn't thrilled to be introduced to a bunch of metal.  I know my nerves are still pissed off.  It's a matter of time and perseverance.  And not reacting.

Yes, I'll talk with the physical therapist about the 'clunk' and the out of control pain I had Friday and Saturday.  Sunday was a whole different day--and I got the mile in.  *shaking head* THAT'S how insane it is with this body of mine right now.  Just keep at it regardless.
At least I'm guessing that's the answer.  LOL  Now, I could get an entirely different one from the physical therapist.  And I might even end up ringing the doc to get some added verification that I'm doing the right thing.
Might, mind you.  I still have an aversion to looking stupid.  :-/

Reading for The Day

Every situation in life offers us a significant opportunity for making a decision that will, of necessity, influence the remaining situations we encounter. Just as we are interdependent, needing and influencing one another in all instances that bring us together, likewise our decisions are never inviolate. Each is singly important; however, its impact is multiplied by the variety of other decisions triggered.

The choice is ours for livings fully today, for taking advantage of all the opportunities that present themselves. Our personal growths, our emotional and spiritual development, are in our hands. 

Down by the Riverside

oyoyoyoy........OY!

I knew when he-who-asked ASKED that there was going to be problems.

Why are you so quiet--what's wrong?

I immediately went into truth/lie/truth/lie/truth/lie . Seriously, he's a PRO at worry and awful-izing situations. I seriously THOUGHT about lying, given my brain is pretty good at calculating the 'if_____then______' in record speed.  It's a part of why I'm so good in a crisis.  I wasn't sure telling the truth was worth his worry.
  *sigh*  I told the truth.....but by the time he-who-can-be-reactive got done reacting I was back pedaling and suggesting PERHAPS I was over reacting and this was the result of broken up scar tissue.
That answer IS plausible give the physical therapist was working on that Friday...and it wasn't until Friday evening that I took note of a sudden 'clunk' around that break site. It only happens when I extend my leg straight in a lying position.....I know--I'm stupid and tested it out when it happened more than three times, trying to recreate it so I could 'figure it out'.
It's a familiar feeling,  that 'clunk'--
Makes me wanna throw up, really.

I think getting in the Jeep and dealing with pain the entire time we were enroute (and back) to do some shopping yesterday wasn't helpful--to the situation or to my thinking problem.  That hasn't happened for some time.  Not that riding in any vehicle is a comfy cozy thing with a hefty brace from hip to calf.
Good grief--I took pain medications during the day, even.  Twice.
Could be that I'm just getting wimpy.
Or, could be an issue with the nonunion break site.  

Who the *#)$^#(  knows.




Of course the answer is to cease doing what I'm doing and,  since I'm not in any excrutiating pain, contact the physician first thing Monday morning and take it from there.
Part of me wants to do just that.  Part of me wants to just keep doing what I WAS doing and see if it isn't self correcting.
I mean, c'mon.....I have this hefty, LONG plate screwed into me mulitple times with a bit that goes into the bone below the break site to hold it good and steady.
What are the odds that there's an issue with the break site with all that hardware?!

I must have chosen the first option.  Up this morning using both crutches.
Tired and right on that verge of tearful anger when I think about the 'what IF'....that's a pretty good reason to simply try options to decrease the constant, nagging pain and busy my brain with other stuff.  
And just do what's in front of me cuz that's what I do best......or.......crawl back into bed, pull the covers over my head and refuse to come out.

Yup--I'm finding a quarter and doing the flip of the coin!

TFTD

Enthusiasm is half of the journey to success, and

all of the journey to joy.

If you're going to do something, do it with gusto. Don't

do anything half-heartedly. That dishonors the doing

and the doer. So go for it. Hold nothing back. In life.

Or love. Or anything at all.

Harvested gold

More Fairy Stuff

Progress is not measured in miles, it is measured

in inches.

Do not wonder why things are "taking so long." In fact,

everything is rolling out exactly as it needs to, using

not a minute more than Perfection requires.

Rest easy and be at peace. Life is working its magic

even as you take your very next breath.

k....

...k....
I have handed my 2nd crutch to he-who-smiled-one-of-those-frozen-ones.

When I showed up for PT today,  I happily greeted the fella who's working with me.

Why are you using 2 crutches?
Cuz you told me to use 2 in unfamiliar territory?
(this is when I got the universal "hand it over" signal)
How many times have you been here?  We're not exactly "unfamiliar."

Smartie pants...  He wants me to use one crutch around the house....and when I go out for my 4 block walk 'during the day'.
If it's night time, I can carry the second one like he taught me.  That means you don't just lift it up and walk, poised to catch yourself if you stumble.  Oooohhhhhh nnoooooooo!  The crutch gets flipped sideways to your right hand so you can carry it horizontally as you use the crutch on that same side.

You're not going to fall.  You're taking the second crutch in case you get too tired to return on one.

Right!!
I'm staying ON,the couch.....and I'm only gonna walk after dark with both crutches in place, poised....ready...
Or...I'll just STAY ON THE COUCH.

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Yup, did the 4 blocks with one crutch carried HIS way.
And I will not obsess over the odd movement.  30 minutes of working on the really tight stuff would explain that.

Behind the curtain

TFTD

Don’t be too hard on yourself. But don’t be too easy on yourself either.

Push yourself steadily and persistently toward meaningful success and achievement. But don’t beat yourself up when you happen to fall short.

Remember that most things are rarely as good as they seem or as bad as they seem. Take the ups and the downs in stride, without letting them throw you off track.

Act with confidence, but not with arrogance. Live with humility, but not with despair.

Live each day with the very best of intentions.   And find positive value in even the most undesirable outcomes.

Keep your focus always on what’s genuinely important. Take a deep, calm breath, and know that by choosing to find real goodness, meaning and fulfillment, you will.

The Predictor of Winter....

Things that make me happy....

....hearing that gleeful 'Ms. Mel is back!' from a couple dozen teenagers (they even sounded kinda happy about it.  LOL)

....discovering my desk chair at work wasn't really broken.  *yeah!*

....the gang of birds gobbling up the berries on the tree.

....the sound of incoming and outgoing geese.

....spy sunglasses that show you what/who is behind you.  Hahaha :-)

....the cool coloured tape on my left leg.

....a bag of new toys for the office!  

Daily Reminder

What you think of yourself has a major impact on what you do with your life. Think more positively about yourself and your world, and every area of your life will reflect it.

All day long, every day, your mind is active, with one thought after another. Instead of making those thoughts judgmental or despairing, choose to make them thankful, loving and accepting.

It’s really very easy to aim your thoughts in a positive direction. Just remind yourself to do it, and it’s done.