oyoyoyoy........OY!

I knew when he-who-asked ASKED that there was going to be problems.

Why are you so quiet--what's wrong?

I immediately went into truth/lie/truth/lie/truth/lie . Seriously, he's a PRO at worry and awful-izing situations. I seriously THOUGHT about lying, given my brain is pretty good at calculating the 'if_____then______' in record speed.  It's a part of why I'm so good in a crisis.  I wasn't sure telling the truth was worth his worry.
  *sigh*  I told the truth.....but by the time he-who-can-be-reactive got done reacting I was back pedaling and suggesting PERHAPS I was over reacting and this was the result of broken up scar tissue.
That answer IS plausible give the physical therapist was working on that Friday...and it wasn't until Friday evening that I took note of a sudden 'clunk' around that break site. It only happens when I extend my leg straight in a lying position.....I know--I'm stupid and tested it out when it happened more than three times, trying to recreate it so I could 'figure it out'.
It's a familiar feeling,  that 'clunk'--
Makes me wanna throw up, really.

I think getting in the Jeep and dealing with pain the entire time we were enroute (and back) to do some shopping yesterday wasn't helpful--to the situation or to my thinking problem.  That hasn't happened for some time.  Not that riding in any vehicle is a comfy cozy thing with a hefty brace from hip to calf.
Good grief--I took pain medications during the day, even.  Twice.
Could be that I'm just getting wimpy.
Or, could be an issue with the nonunion break site.  

Who the *#)$^#(  knows.




Of course the answer is to cease doing what I'm doing and,  since I'm not in any excrutiating pain, contact the physician first thing Monday morning and take it from there.
Part of me wants to do just that.  Part of me wants to just keep doing what I WAS doing and see if it isn't self correcting.
I mean, c'mon.....I have this hefty, LONG plate screwed into me mulitple times with a bit that goes into the bone below the break site to hold it good and steady.
What are the odds that there's an issue with the break site with all that hardware?!

I must have chosen the first option.  Up this morning using both crutches.
Tired and right on that verge of tearful anger when I think about the 'what IF'....that's a pretty good reason to simply try options to decrease the constant, nagging pain and busy my brain with other stuff.  
And just do what's in front of me cuz that's what I do best......or.......crawl back into bed, pull the covers over my head and refuse to come out.

Yup--I'm finding a quarter and doing the flip of the coin!