A bit about determined.......

I hurt.

Inside and out, there's pain.
It's not the outside that has my energy...it's the inside that's eating it up.
When you care about a life.......when that life matters more to you than it does to them, when you get up after being knocked down so many times still determined "You can't MAKE me go away".....it starts to hurt.

I cannot stay down......won't....
I remain because it's what I do....it's who I am............

I do not surrender easily.
But I'm not a victim of the unbridled wrath--I'm a volunteer who stands ready. And I'll stand up and weather it again if need be--cuz it matters......cuz another life MATTERS.

Do as you will.

Say what you want.
I stand my ground in YOUR life.....the life that matters to this one.

I'm angry.

Things were said that were said deliberately, with malice and forethought......planful, spiteful words spoken with hopes of driving that anger in me to the surface, with hopes of making me go away.

I won't.

With much pain still in my heart.......with all my heart because the life MATTERS to this one--

I WILL NOT GO AWAY.

I've inventoried it.

I'm clean......my side of the street is clean.

I won't live in another's garbage.

I'll pick it up with the hurt in my heart and deposit it where garbage goes.


But I will NOT go away.