"I've been asked to find another physician."Well shoot--when you lie and manipulate the one you have to hand over multiple scripts for painkillers and abuse the medication.....small wonder.
"Apparently I've become offensive--I've never been offensive before."
Hold on a minute--I think there's a small hearing problem here. Folks have been pointing out that offensive crap you do for eons....
"I was sober for five years, so I know I can work the program."
Sober by your definition is simply 'alcohol free'. I suppose you can be sober and still trashed on painpills given that definition...... Regardless--you couldn't maintain sober by your definition...maybe you need to look at your definition?
"Are you saying I haven't worked a program of recovery?"
Four years ago I told him I was worried about him and to ring me...I wasn't sure why or how, but when you do what we do, you can see the train wreck coming before the train actually picks up speed.
*sigh*
Train wreck.
I wish he'd get it. Really. I really, really, REALLY wish he'd 'get it'.
I agreed to meet with him this morning after the meeting--with WPIML.....who doesn't know about the meeting after the meeting. Well, he KNOWS about the meeting after the meeting--he just doesn't know it'll include this fella.
I don't know if I'll get anywhere. Fine people have tried to break through that denial before--and had little success. I'm not delusional--I know the odds are against him finding something different. But the odds were against me, too. And every single one of us has a chance IF we're willing to do some things different.
Dunno that he's willing.
I do know what I'm not willing to do, what I'm unwilling to compromise.....and that's the integrity of the 12th step--which tells me anywhere and with everyone like me, I'm responsible to carry the message of hope.
Off I go........
"Apparently I've become offensive--I've never been offensive before."
Hold on a minute--I think there's a small hearing problem here. Folks have been pointing out that offensive crap you do for eons....
"I was sober for five years, so I know I can work the program."
Sober by your definition is simply 'alcohol free'. I suppose you can be sober and still trashed on painpills given that definition...... Regardless--you couldn't maintain sober by your definition...maybe you need to look at your definition?
"Are you saying I haven't worked a program of recovery?"
Four years ago I told him I was worried about him and to ring me...I wasn't sure why or how, but when you do what we do, you can see the train wreck coming before the train actually picks up speed.
*sigh*
Train wreck.
I wish he'd get it. Really. I really, really, REALLY wish he'd 'get it'.
I agreed to meet with him this morning after the meeting--with WPIML.....who doesn't know about the meeting after the meeting. Well, he KNOWS about the meeting after the meeting--he just doesn't know it'll include this fella.
I don't know if I'll get anywhere. Fine people have tried to break through that denial before--and had little success. I'm not delusional--I know the odds are against him finding something different. But the odds were against me, too. And every single one of us has a chance IF we're willing to do some things different.
Dunno that he's willing.
I do know what I'm not willing to do, what I'm unwilling to compromise.....and that's the integrity of the 12th step--which tells me anywhere and with everyone like me, I'm responsible to carry the message of hope.
Off I go........
8 comments:
No one has ever told me that any of the steps or the road to recovery would be easy. But you know that.
You are a good person.
(((((((((((((((MEL)))))))))))))))))
Peace.
oh, it's so true, that some of us have to hit rock bottom before we can start the climb back up again
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your pigeon is so lucky that he has you - does he know that. . .
this is sooo relevant to what I've just posted. Not that I'm anywhere near are capable to help someone as you are, I still try, knowing it's all gonna explode in my face.
You will do what you know needs to be done..and you have to know that is all that you could do, regardless of how the other person receives you...and your help.
You can only do your best, no one can expect more from you, including yourself.
Your good Mel and we all know you are doing your best. We just hope you know it.
much love
Lia
xx
"the message of hope."
And you do, dear lady.
You do.
X
Oh good luck Mel. I know you do what you can anyway but a little bit of luck as well?
Gotta be true to Mel
((((((((((((((((MEL))))))))))))))))))))))))
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