The Simple Two Years

We celebrated two years of marriage on Saturday. Wierdest darn thing..

On one hand, it feels like we've been loving each other forever. On the other hand, it feels like we've just entered into this marriage deal--which is just too wierd.

And I honestly have no complaints.
None.
Zip.
Zilch.

As much as we give each other a hard time about weekly boxcars (his quirk) and Halloween and 'sales!' (my quirks).....neither of us would change a damn thing about the other. We wouldn't want to even if we could. It's what makes him, him--it's what makes me, me. Eerie, but darn true.

Ya know, all my life I wandered around rather fickle about love and marriage and intimate relationships period. I thought I knew. I really and honestly and TRULY thought I KNEW what loving was all about. And all that I know today is everything is backasswards to how I thought it was suppose to be. I quit forcing things to be like they were 'suppose to be' and started embracing the idea that things WERE as they WERE and THAT was exactly as they were suppose to be.

It's just more proof about the more I learn, the stupider I discover I am. Or maybe it's just ignorance.
I do know that I own a gazillion self help books that need to find their way to some unsuspecting person who wants to fill their heads with their nonsense. Cuz parts of it apply--but when you miss the bigger picture--NONE of it works as a whole.

It's easy.
It's so darn freaking simple it's scary.
And it's nothing I've experienced EVER.

I have someone who believes in me, who loves me, who sees ME exactly as I am today. And that's more than enough.
And I'm graced to be clear that I don't get to change squat about anyone BUT me--which leaves me clear what I'll get to change about the Brit--which brings me to acceptance of what I'd LIKE to change, which is zilch. Darndest thing to not want to change anything or anyone....and to not HAVE to change anything for anyone today.

It's easy.
It's simple.
It's doable.

It's just not marketable...LOL Cuz someone once told me how very simple it was and I refused to believe them.
*whacking self on the head*

There are three basic things I remind myself of daily.

I cannot guard my heart.
I get to love as I've always wanted to love.

And I get to remember and fulfill MY job description.

Maybe I oughta patent those before I hit the print button.. LOL
Nahhhh..nobody's buy 'em.
Too darn simple.


*shrugs*