What area(s) are you the most critical about youself?
Problem!! Most folks find my inventory taking to be 'critisizing' me. I don't look at it that way.
My defects of character aren't tied in to my worth and value.
I know that's incredible to believe. LOL Trust me when I say-- that's not me dismissing my defects as 'unimportant'.
To the contrary.....I know that my defects are all mine. I also know that they're serving a usefullness as IS today, elsewise they would have been surrendered by me and plucked.
The're still 'mine' because there's some usefullness.....even if they're not comfy.
That probably makes sense to only me.
So if I have to pick the areas I'm most critical in when it comes to me, I'd have to slice at the pride and ego 'stuff' that I still get into.
I'm most critical of them because, while there might be SOME usefullness to them, I still think they get in the way of being of maximum benifit to G-d and others.
It matters to me how it looks, still.....which freaking pisses me off--but obviously not enough to surrender it, huh?
It still carries weight with me. If folks perceive me as pompous--odds are that they're not going to see me as very useful in their lives.
Matters of pride and ego STILL crank my noodle and I can get really, really critical of me when I get out of the situation and see how they came into play.
Darnit that I'm still not that adept at seeing them while it's all playing out.
*sigh*
Perhaps I oughta say my biggest criticizing 'thing' about ME is that aim for perfection......and accepting less.
Obviously I suck at it.
ROFL
SEE!!!?!?!!!
2 comments:
oh god that makes total sense:
that your defects are still your defects because they are of use
(but it frightens the hell out of me too)
Those things that wind you up when you're too deep into the situation to catch yourself at it are a real pain aren't they.
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