I hurt.
I just plain hurt.
At least I had sence enough to ring the doc and take her up on the offer to not wait until the next appointment to increase the meds.....again.
The answer to all this can't just be "more drugs"....can it?
It can't be....
I'm not rational.
When I feel like this, and this makes three days without much of a reprieve, I know it's a bad time to make decisions. Buy time. Change nothing--at least don't make drastic choices. Hell, they all feel like drastic ones right now.
I wanna believe it was the right thing to do, ringing the doc. It's what she told me to do.
I can't do a change of this type on a workday. I have to drive. I set a meeting up an hour away from the office.....which is almost an hour away to begin with.
I'll try plan B. Buy time, and try for some sleep. Lack thereof only magnifies how everything else FEELS right now.
I have the option of doing nothing until I can make a sane, rational choice.
The clue is moving wayyyyy to the other end of the continuum in just a few sentences. LOL....Ohhh yes....try for sleep and buy time, Mel.
You'll read this in the morning and chuckle!!!
Or......not.....
5 comments:
Oh Mel, I'm so sorry you hurt. It's a hard place to be. I juggle my meds to fit my needs of the moment. It works for me. I've been doing this since my surgery, 12 years ago.
I hope you can find some relief and some order to it all.
I care so very much. ♥
I hope this is as temporary as it can get so that you can move forward. Sleep is so important, it's awful when it eludes us.
"Lack thereof only magnifies how everything else FEELS right now."
Exactly Mel, lack of sleep definitely magnifies how everything else feels because it becomes a challenge for our body and mind to function without rest.
I hope your doc finds a solution to this so that you can finally get some good sleep.
((((((((((( You )))))))))))
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I hope YOU were able to chuckle. My heart wasn't feeling it. I'm so sorry....it just shouldn't be like this...you're supposed to be getting better on the pain spectrum.
Sending up prayers, right now, and only a day late!
I sure hope you got sleep..
(((MEL))))
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