Hard to live, necessary to strive for:
Absolute Honesty
Absolute Unselfishness
Absolute Love
Absolute Purity
It's been a tough day.
I've spent the better part of the day dealing in the realities of what's 'out there' for help.
And truly, there's not a whole lot of options. (this I already knew.....)
He didn't help secure help with his waivering, wishy washy, committed one minute and BSing the next minute attitude.
He ain't done yet.
24 hours.
That's what they'll hold him for--and Mick took it.
I can sleep tonight and know he'll be alive in the morning.
I'll take that much.
I don't care if he hates me. I'll be able to live with myself.
He gets to decide if he's willing to be honest.
Today's admit going beyond that 24 hours was contingent upon his willingness to tell the truth in the assessment he had done today.
And they didn't want to talk with Mick.
Nor did they want to talk with me.
But they did listen to me.
And they did listen to Mick.
That much I was able to accomplish.
That....... and I put my name on the dotted line.
I don't care if he hates me.
At least I'll be able to sleep knowing he'll be alive in the morning.......
7 comments:
K..
I am going to leave the outer space comment...
but it's where my head is at..
So if it's to weird..
sorry.
...
Living with it
or with out it
staring at truth
or coming at it from the side
it's the anger
the fear
that eats
that tears and makes me lay on the deck and stare at the stars and wonder about monkeys with guns,
I'm okay with a lot of things..
because my best is always good enough for me, and what ever I did
that hurt you
wasn't about you
it was about me.
Always.
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(((MEL)))
just sending hugs
{{{{{mel}}}}}
Sleep well, Mel....
And a bunch more hugs....
((((((MEL)))))
familiarity with dotted lines isn't ever easy, is it?
{{{hugs}}}
-thinking of you-
-t
You did the right thing, real love isnt passive, or being nicey sometimes...its knowing when to defend them from themselves, and when to let them fall
(((hugs))) Take care, and try and sleep....and remeber, you did the right thing!!!
((((((( sorrow )))))))))
Well received--thank you. Wasn't 'outter space-ish' at all.
Dotted lines--I want to beleive that it was the 'right' thing to do. It's what I did.
And today, is a brand spankin' new day with adventures galore just waiting to be had.
WITH bubbles.
Cuz I'm thinkin' bubbles will be required, today. ;-)
hope you slept well
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