It is often difficult to identify the exact moment that your life falls apart.
In most cases, it is not a one-shot deal.
If you ask most people who have had the experience of losing everything they love or believe in, they will probably say it was not one telephone call or one letter, one revelation or realization that caused the collapse of life as they knew it.
I now understand that my life fell apart one piece at a time.
Piece by piece; one experience, one situation, and one circumstance at a time, until I found myself standing in the midst of a heap of broken promises, splintered relationships, and shattered dreams.
It is not a place I ever imagined I would find myself again, after I had gotten through it the first fifty or sixty times.
The breaking down into pieces of a life is a painful thing to watch and even more painful to endure.
Even more devastating is that as your life begins to unravel, day by day, piece by piece, there is absolutely nothing you can do to stop it.
You see what is happening.
You know what is happening.
And, you want anything other than what is happening to happen.
You see, somewhere deep inside, we all know that lives are not built to fall apart.
That is just not what lives are meant to do.
The lives we are given by God are meant by God to grow, to blossom and flourish.
The reality is, however, lives do crumble.
I now realize that lives fall apart when they need to be rebuilt.
Lives fall apart when the foundation upon which they were built needs to be re-laid.
Lives fall apart, not because God is punishing us for what we have or have not done.
Lives fall apart because they need to.
They need to because they weren’t built the right way in the first place.
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One thing that dawned on me as I move through the years is that it's not always about me. It is hard, but the bottom line of every dilemma is patience. Wait, it will change, for the better, for the worse, but it will change. As the world turns I realize what I can do and what I can't, what I should and what I shouldn't. I make mistakes, others make mistakes, and the clock never ever stops ticking.
The easiest prayer I know is Thanks.
The hardest is Sorry.
In AlAnon, we have a sign that says simply, "Something's gotta change" It's probably me.
Thank you so much for the words and for the place to say what I need to say about them. I appreciate you and the Fairies.
Peace
((((((( Spadoman )))))))))
Once upon a time it was easy for me to take everyone elses inventory and point out where they'd fallen short--I just 'knew' they needed me to.
Not so easy today. I figure the Big Guy helped make that happen....and the cranky old fart WPIML helped that along, of course. LOL
Funny--I can 'know' that all things happen for a reason and still whine about 'em.
<-- enjoys a good whine! LOL
Sometimes it seems to me like the nicest people have the hardest time when lives fall apart. Whether it's their own life or the life of someone close to them.
Hugs.
My life fell apart
then fell apart some more
I think I'm rebuilding
I hope I'm rebuilding
but the falling apart taught me a great deal
lessons I would never have learned otherwise.
You and your fairies have helped me see. Hugs.
What a faaaaaabulous fairy reading, Mel!!!!!
I loved this WHOLE post! Every word of it!
And it's absolutely true....
"I now realize that lives fall apart when they need to be rebuilt."
I realized during a scary time when my life 'felt' as though it was falling apart, it was actually coming together!
Thank you for sharing this enlightening reminder, dear lady!
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