At a time when things feel upside-down and inside-out.....I truly am blessed.
And when I glance backwards through the week, I can see the good in the days, even if I do grumble a bit here and there (and everywhere! LOL).
I have been so well taken care of.
From my employer who continues to stay connected, encouraging and supporting....to the people around me who've managed to take care of my every need (and trust me when I say I've needed a LOT from them.....). I've been so graced and well loved. It's amazing.
If my greatest desolation was the purple cast this week--that speaks volumes!
It's about the ONE thing that I don't (and would if I could!) get to change today. And it seemingly it's what I hang on to as a 'right to kvetch' material.
Honestly, the experience is bringing me a whole array of 'stuff'--and focusing on the me/my/mine bit is me doing what I DO.
Counting joys in the day has been so helpful to me. That one little thing has helped my attitude shift a bit. Trust me--it needed to shift.
Maybe it's that coupled with the visit to the doctor and getting a 'come back in three weeks' diagnosis. LOL Somehow that feels like 'light at the end of a tunnel'....even though he clearly spoke to the 2 MORE months of healing I will need to be doing.
Maybe it was the intense inventory taking--the good, long, hard look at the differences between what I say.....and what I do.
There's great humility in discovering you STILL say one thing and do another, more times than you like.
I'm one that depends on humility to stay 'right sized' in order to BE at peace....boy--I know how that sounds odd, but is true for me.
After all that 'what happened to change things thinking' is the relief comes that moment of 'WHY isn't important' -- the level of witchiness has decreased, the level of frustration has decreased and my thinking is less intolerant. I'm hugely grateful for that.
As are the people around me, no doubt.
I want the 'WHY' so I can bottle it and drink from it the next time (cuz there will be a next time) I get piffy and intolerant and witchy.
Perhaps the answer is to drink it up TODAY and let TODAY be a day filled with love and gratitude.
6 comments:
I so enjoy reading these posts, Mel!
And it's so wonderful to read you learning and growing from this experience.
Brava!
" I've been so graced and well loved. It's amazing."
That's because you grace and touch the lives of others with LOVE.
((((((((( You )))))))))))
X ya bunches, dear lady!
slowing down sometimes lets things catch up.
A friend of mine writes down (on a little bit of paper) all the good things that happen during the week as they happen. She then puts them in a jar and when she's feeling grumpy or irritated she pulls out the pieces of paper and reads them...she says it helps remind her of the good and always makes her feel better!
Just wanted to let you know that I didn't manage to post your picture at the weekend. The snow here is dreadful and I didn't make it to the post office. Should be able to post it by the end of the week. Sorry for the delay.
C x
You will come out on the right side smiling. I just know it because you seem to be that kind of person.
Hi Mel,
I am just catching up with the posts that I had leftover from yesterday' reading...
This fall has done much more than break bones and diable. It has set in motion a new type of momentum to make good out of bad.
One of the key words there is this:
humility.
That is a big lesson and unfortunately, one that often has to be relearned by everyone.
I think that you are doing fine.
xox
The day is yours so I hope you are enjoying it : )
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