Saturday, February 16, 2013

Treading Water with the Bread

Going on an adventure or two.  Finding sensible shoes (yes, I whined about those suckers--and I still lament that heels won't happen....yet..)  Watching trains from the backseat of a Jeep.  Snow flying and icing the world around outside.  Cards from people in far away places.  Love letters and an abundance of warmth and acceptance right where my feet are--these are things to celebrate and wrap my heart in.  Creating and making a bigger squirrels nest... I've no doubt that I've been graced with a multitude of things in the past week.  Getting a bath, for goodness sakes--HUGE delicacy that I've indulged in because it's availed to me, today.  I know these things are considered 'small' by some--but in the circumstances I'd measure them totally different.  Funny how that happens....

And then there's the 'say it (don't undo it) and keep moving'.  
Valentine's Day is such a lovely excuse to be loving....to let people know they matter to you.  It's an easy thing to hide behind--a circumstance that only encourages what I've been trying to practice, day in day out.  Now, I'm pretty sure that Valentine's Day wasn't established years ago JUST for making life easier for little ol' me. LOL (though at times I DO convince myself of such grandeur! )  But really, it's been one of those ideal circumstances placed in front of me that I've taken full advantage of.  Apparently it happened all over the place.  LOL  I'm hopeful everyone's taken advantage of it to speak your heart's truth.

The focus this week in living the dream is making sure you're actually following through on the dream that you've embarked on with your Maker.  Ummm.....oops?  LOL Today,  I'm a 'just DO it' kinda gal.  Spending five weeks talking about DOING something is really something I was good at 'once upon a time'.  I find myself getting impatient with others who want to talk something to death, plan what implementation is going to look like, troubleshoot potential barriers....and waste time trying to predict instead of just jumping in the deep end of the pool and trusting that you have what it takes to SWIM.  Toss me in--I'll deal with the mouth full of water once it's full.WPIML knows this--and nurtured this in me, truth be told.  I'm a quick thinker, a good talker AND an accomplished procrastinator.  If he had to choose which best served me and others--TOSS ME IN THE POOL.

Discipline.  Now, I know tossing me in doesn't look like discipline.  It looks utterly insane--drowning could happen.  And it's not all circumstances in which shoving me in the deep end is the answer.  Sometimes it IS plan-full and deliberate and well thought through and deliberated.  But there's that NIKE time (JUST DO IT!) that always gets to happen.  And a check point to see that I'm still swimming, that I've grabbed onto the life preserver if a 'rest' is required...and a team of two (or more) cheering me on to get to swimming when 'rest' isn't conducive.  (sometimes I don't see how close to the pool's edge I am when I'm flailing and trying to tread water.)  But even in that deep end, there's the discipline of talking to me (good ol' self talk!) and others, of looking at what's working and what's not...of keeping my eye on the goal and straightening my course so I'm getting to that designated 'place'.  
And there are times to just 'float' and breathe.....I trust that G-d has me covered .  

I think that's why I'm already in the pool.  
Well, that and I could talk things to death and back without ever DOING....I AM an accomplished talker.

I'm IN the pool!
The water's not bad, quite frankly. 
And I've got enough spectators cheering me on that the swim is actually been rather....pleasant. (I say this but  need to include that 'pleasant' doesn't mean 'comfortable'.)  It's that 'don't undo it' that snags me and makes me splash around and lose the momentum of the swim.  But I'm treading water just the same--undoing the undo.  LOL  And making sure folks know.  Cuz that's what I'm purposed to do.  
And the ripples from that pool....(much like the splash I made when I was shoved in)-- huge.

7 comments:

LindyLouMac said...

Just do it live the dream, you put it so eloquently Mel. Thanks for your recent comment on my photography blog your get well wishes are appreciated.

Ron said...

"....and waste time trying to predict instead of just jumping in the deep end of the pool and trusting that you have what it takes to SWIM. Toss me in--I'll deal with the mouth full of water once it's full."

I'm the same way, Mel! Just jump in and trust! Because as much as I've tried to "plan", it never turns out that way anyway.

"I trust that G-d has me covered."

Aaaaaaamen!

Wonderful post, dear lady!

(((((( You ))))))

X

Carol said...

Hmmm...I am a bit of both! Sometimes I will be 'sod the planning lets just get on with it and deal with what comes up when it comes up...if it comes up' and other times I have to plan every single tiny detail! I had to do some work for one of my Uni classes on personalities and apparently I was quite unique cause I came right in the middle of two. Made me laugh cause i didn't need a personality type thing to tell me I was an weird bugger :-)

C x

barb said...

Hey Mel,
I swear, you are not coming out of this crisis as the same woman. You have nurtered gratitude, rejoyced in small steps and joys and reassesed a lot of terrtory that you thought that you knew.

GROWTH!
Just wait until that beautiful woman is going to be able to walk on heals again, drive and move it!
xox

Holley Gerth said...

Mel, thanks for sharing your heart with us! Your are a treasure!

Anonymous said...

I need an excuse to say You are the bomb??? go figure.. ~laughing~
you are the best!

mig said...

Love you Mel.
Just saying.