k............this whole 'pathetic' thing is something people are seeing as 'normal' and something to aspire for?
Then would someone care to explain to me why it is that I'm freaking out?!
*sigh*
Ya know, I think the realities threaten everything I've ever known before.
I'm a self reliant, self sufficient, independent individual.
I don't 'need' anyone.
Should it all fall apart tomorrow--I'd deal.
I don't FEEL like I'd deal worth a darn at the moment.
18 days and this is what reality reared it's ugly head??!
I'M A MUSHBUCKET!
And EVERYONE KNOWS IT!
And we're suddenly some 'old married couple'?
Ya know those 'when we grow old I'll still be holding your hand' moments you have?
I'm living them, apparently.
NOT that it's all bad.
People 'aspire' to arrive at this point this with someone they love.
It's 'normal'.
Freaks me out.
Utterly freaks me out.
*poof* Everything you've known suddenly--gone. It's apparently been a slow erosion and no one asked my permission!
*shuddering*
And pray tell, if something SHOULD happen tomorrow...how the hell DOES one deal when they wake up and find themself here, checking locks and rechecking and reacting to all the noises a house makes?
Okay.
Breathing is required and I'll try to do that.
I need a cuppa coffee---black, no sugar.
Ya know-----it's probably just that itty bitty sh*tty committee messing with me.
Coffee.
Yep.
Maybe popcorn WITH coffee.
Gawd..........that doesn't even SOUND good at this moment!
OMG
What DID I just say!!!!!!!!!
1 comment:
It all looks good on you, though, you know, 'normal', 'pathetic' or otherwise.
Popcorn with coffee? Um no, but some sort of coffee flavoured, caramelised type popcorny thing might work....
;-)
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