It's been a tough week.....or two....or three....or--
Yaknow, I'm tired of saying that.
I think it's become my focus, and that's not good.
When I keep track of all that's 'ick'--that's what I notice.
When I keep track of all that's 'awwwww.....how cool......', that's what I notice.
How do ya wanna spend your energy, Mel?
It's limited as is....HOW do you wanna spend it?
I get to bury one of my staff members this morning.
Saturday I had to make the phone calls to all my staff letting them know that their 52 year old coworker had died in her sleep. She'd just started her two week vacation the day before. The whole family is devastated--everyone's more than a bit messy.....kiddos included.
The Big Guy needs to explain this one to me some day.
And I've been operating in that 'turned off' mode just to do what's in front of me....mentally keeping track of the 'ick' and not bothering to weed through that to see the good that surrounds me every day.
Small wonder doc thinks an anti-depressant might do me some good.
What would do me better--ANSWERS.
Winning the lottery, even!
Oh yeah.....gotta play in order to win.......
Thinkin' I just MIGHT buy a ticket!
Shushupalready......you're upright, breathing and on the right side of the grass........
11 comments:
{{{{{Mel}}}}}
I am so sorry for your loss.
An alternative point of view might be that G-d had finished his work on Earth with your co-worker and promoted them to the right side, the Kingdom of Heaven.
Just so you have an alternative to contemplate that isn't as painful.
monty
==> chuckling...
"Right side of the grass"
Huggity hug hug hugs.
hugs
hugs
hugs
hugs
and thank you for your kind words the other evening, when I was feeling so rubbish
I hope you are managing to rest
and eat
too
XXX
and it is fuzzy day too.
I've been looking up for answers too...
( "WHAT was God thinking??" )
and for direction
("just tell me what you want me to do and I will do it...just tell me")
sigh.
its hard to wait for His time.
<----not always patient with God
surprise surprise
<----not always patient with self
I've always gotten good words from this weblog...Maybe I oughta buy a lottery ticket this week....
sending you love
Spend energy living?
or surviving?
Spend knowing?
or believing?
What ever do we do with all these damn choices...
(((((MEL)))))
I am heart sad for you...
Mel needs a cup of tea, and some time in the wind...
Please go listen to "Sweet Surrender" on my blog Mel.
Sigh... I'm so sorry, Mel.
I know what you mean about wondering why and answers.
I also know that you are breathing and upright on the right side of the grass.
and loved. don'tchaknow.
((((((mel))))))
hugs for your early morning
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(((((((((( ILTV )))))))))))))
And for you, dearheart.
It's a brand new day with brand new adventures awaiting!
Ain't it cool? :-)
And my sincere thanks for all the hugs and well wishes........
*humming*
Sweet, sweet surrender
Live, live without care.....
Beautiful--thank you, Monty!
I'm a day late on this one...
But here's a Friday hug...
{{{{{{{MEL}}}}}}}}
And a bunch of LOVE too!
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