Excuse me a minute or two.......

I was |____| <-- there. Just that close to feeling like I was gonna lose what little sense of order/control I had in the circumstances. And I thought that was a really uncomfortable place to be.

I'm now |_| <-- here.

If I thought that last place was uncomfortable--BOY howdy......this is even more uncomfortable.

Smooshed doesn't even begin to explain it.
There's no breathing room.

None.

Stupid troubles of my own making this time, tyvm.....

I managed to have a rotten day and didn't bother to make that trip to the park LIKE I COMMITTED and PLANNED to do......and I came straight home.
And when I was asked how the day went...... I, LIKE AN IDIOT, started to report.

And true to why I COMMITTED and PLANNED to detour before coming home...I got what I got. And it was not pretty.
And then I wasn't pretty.
Fact is, in my scramble to shut it off cuz I was already |_| <-- there.....I managed to say things in an UNKIND and UNNECESSARY (even if it was true) way.

FINE FREAKING MESS I made of it.

|_| <-- HERE sucks.

And me saying things that don't fit the 'necessary, kind and true' criteria......DUMB DUMB DUMB.

Instead of managing the mess/fallout I create more.

DUMB.

Yes.

I'll clean up the mess I created.
Yes.

I'll own my part....cuz it was wrong and DUMB.

YES.

I'll stick with the plan I COMMITTED to MYSELF to do.

I NEED to stop setting up more problems--cuz there isn't ROOM for 'em.

PERIOD.

k......

Got it.

|_| <-- here sucks......BUT

.....it IS better than

|| <-- here.