.......and I feel _______ *sigh*

He knocked on the door after I'd excused myself by announcing I was going to bed.
My 'feeling' was enabled and I felt it.

Hugely so.

I don't think I'd felt so......misunderstood, maybe? Dunno what I felt......

"I sounded mean."

Yeah......ya did.

"I don't have the patience for that kind of thing."

You suggested I give up. And I will not.
Once-upon-a-time someone cared enough about my life to not give up on me.....and I can't...won't give up.

I said those things to him.

Not maliciously.
Not angrily.....I just........said 'em.....

In the core of me is this place that HAS to persevere.
It's a huge piece of ME.

And this morning--I left before he awakened.

It was about 9ish when he rang me at work to tell me he'd felt bad about what he'd said.

I appreciated the call.

Really....I did.

I do.