Excuse me while I try to figure this out.....

I'm not sure what I walked in to.
Something, apparently.....
Obviously.....
When I get blown up and things get twisted and skewed and used as a bat on me--I gotta wonder exactly how that happened....  Especially since I didn't see it coming AT all.

Now, I know all the lovely professional terms.  But unprofessionally-- Safe place to sling your shit is the assessment.
Face it--you have hurts/angers with folks that you don't feel like you can be honest with, you gotta do something with those hurts/angers.  And since I'm a steady Eddie and I'm not going anywhere--easy place to sling shit.....which of course, I questioned.... Which, of course, hasn't be answered--more twisting and skewing and hostility.  Common tactics, deflect, deflect, deflect and don't answer.  I'll get an answer eventually.  If there's one thing I do well, it's persevere!


So....At this point in time I've asked How about you tell me what it is you want from me and we'll go from there.

I want nothing....  was the answer.
Let's either dub that 'denial' or call it 'liar liar pants on fire'.  Either one will do.

I remember doing this on numerous occasions.
It was quite effective.  People didn't know what hit 'em.....and I 'felt better' for blowing up some undeserving soul. Come to think of it,  I 'felt better' for blowing up the 'deserving souls', too.
That's more honest--everyone got blown up, deserving or undeserving.  It was pretty much my solution for anything and anyone.

I'm trying to remember just how I got out of that piss poor solution for hurts and angers.
I think it was WPIML dragging me back to my 'victim' and making me apologize for treating another human being in an unloving manner.
.....over and over and over again....
I highly doubt that's going to work in this circumstance.
And WPIML put up with a hellacious amount displaced anger and resentment shoved in his direction.
How that changed wasn't from his demands inter-personally between him and I--it was a byproduct of his demands of my behavior with others.

Ohhhh yeah.....  I remember now.
I started to find a conscience.......

*shudder*
Ewwwwwww