Holy moly.....

"You're kidding...."

That seems to be the favored response here as I make calls to let folks know there's an issue with me showing up to work this morning....
And lemme tell ya--I am NOT removing my brace...ever...or at least until the shingles go away.
Brilliant me--decided that I needed to take the brace off and get some feeling back into that left side since it was so cold from the lack of circulation.  It DID warm up.  And then the pain set in.  And I'm talking pain.  The kind that gets me silent and sets the other leg to bouncing up and down so I don't say horrible things.  Someone was dunking my foot into battery acid.  Holy moly that wasn't a pleasant experience.  If I wanted to know what those clustered, angry blistered things were--ALL doubt was removed last night when the pain found me.
Shingles.

Up most of the night, even after returning the brace, even after a scripted pain medication cuz it wasn't calming down......I wanna believe having the brace on will control some of that pain.  I'm not sure that's true. I just wanna believe it.  *sigh*  It's on.  I'm making calls...and I'm getting on with the business at hand.
I suppose at some point I'll need to ring the OTHER doc and see if he'll still want to see me with this going on.
Surely he'll still want to see me.......
*sigh*

Getting a shoe on to get to the local physician oughta be fun.
Gosh.....  WHAT an adventure.
Ya think this might be an indicator of the amount of internal stress I'm walking around with?

Stress? Me?  Stress?!
WHAT stress?!
Oy.....

I'm tired.
And I'm snarky.  (I think I like that word.)
And I'm gonna get a handle on all this, really I am.
I can't afford to keep operating like ...... THIS.
Even the fairies know this and keep trying to tell me.
I canNOT keep operating like this.

*laughing*  I keep saying that. And then SOMEthing happens and back I go to operating like THIS.
I need the SOMEthing to stop happening.
Boy.....that'd be NICE!
*sigh*