75 seconds......

What did I want?
What did I do to get it?
What did I end up with?

First step material--sometimes I curse treatment center psycho-babble B.S. Don't bother telling me things that aren't in The Book.
"Just don't drink!" "This is a selfish program."
Righhhhhhhhhtttttttttttttttt.........*checking the book* That ain't in there..........and I know why. LOL

That first step is all about bothering to get honest with outselves......cuz most of us haven't bothered, dontchaknow.
Every day I get to look at those same questions, take that same first step and remind myself of what it was like........least I start to give myself permission to go there again.
I have selective recall........I like to remember what I wanna remember.

Yesterday I shared something around the tables that was tried with me.........
It set me on a quest to prove myself capable and therefore, unlike the REST of 'em.

Deciding to 'just not drink' is like deciding to hold your breath for a minute and fifteen seconds--

It's rather entertaining. You start out all confident and cocky............and then you lose it.
No foolin'.......you can hear your brain in action.
And yesterday I'm watching a bunch of grown men nodding cuz they 'know' that brain activity well..........and they're holding their breath. LOL

Better they shoulda been asking themselves
What did I want?
What did I do to get it?
What did I end up with?